A trapeze artist must let go completely of one bar,
waiting and trusting, in mid-air for the next.
Can you let go?
My plan has slowly crumbled and my next steps have become unclear. If I continue as I always have, my need for control of my life kicks into full gear and I step up to I “make it right”.
What if, on the other hand, HOPE takes over? What if I let go of the trapeze and rather than focusing on my plan, just enjoy living in the moment? Could I possibly do this? Living in the moment is becoming less and less of a question and more and more of a necessity. What would I continue to miss while looking so far ahead at my goals? My possessiveness of goals and my master plan can easily possess me! I can often find myself looking forward to something, and forget to enjoy simple day-to-day things along the way. It is those things I will someday miss and wonder how they passed so quickly.
I am under no disillusions that I can chuck my plan overnight. I won't just wake up and start magically living in the moment. I can however, begin to acknowledge my tendency to possess a plan and simply trust -- trust in others, trust in me, and trust indeed that the best plan is to not have a plan.
The idea of nonattachment does not mean you don't care, it means you can be freed up to be immersed in appreciation in life and one another. I am at a point in my life where I need to make some changes. My new plan is more open-ended than the others. It is to learn to let go of my trapeze and accept the idea of hanging in mid-air to swing towards a future filled with hope and endless possibilities.